Was blind, but now we see...

A simple thought occurred to me this morning as I was walking/singing my Zeeky to sleep. I was singing "Amazing Grace" in his sweet little ear and could just feel his body relax. While the words "Was blind but now I see" came along, I glanced up to my wall where we have a piece of wall art that says "FAITH"...man oh man...FAITH!!!

It has been FAITH that has kept us afloat since we stopped receiving income in October 2010. It has been FAITH that has shown us how to live an incredibly humbling (sometimes humiliating) life. It is FAITH that comforts this Mommy when she doesn't seem to have enough money to buy more diapers. It has been FAITH that sings me, Steve, Malachi, and Zeek to sleep each night. (Zeph. 3:17--The Lord's singing over us!) It is FAITH that has "ruined" our lives (in the world's eyes). It is FAITH leading incredible people to help support our family. It is FAITH bringing volunteers down to the island. It has been FAITH leading us and it is FAITH encouraging us as we pay each bill, buy each grocery item, and somehow clothe our ever-growing boys. But most of all, the thought that came to me this morning was...FAITH messes you up! :)

FAITH puts your own thoughts and desires completely out of the picture. It is not something seen, but unseen, that we are putting our hope in?! WHAT?! That sounds CRAZY!! Well, it is. We Christians should appear a little crazy to the world around us. We are to be different. We are to be "messed up". We are to have FAITH.

"Was blind but now I see..." Well, FAITH has made it's own line to the song. "Could see but now we're blind!" What I mean is that before we had embraced and enriched our FAITH in our amazing Lord, we were surrounded by what we could see and touch. The tangible life around us was all that we had. But now, we are "blind", meaning that we cannot see where money comes from every month, we can't see the immediate impact on a home owner's life, we can't see a lot of things...but I'm kinda liking being in the dark. It keeps us on our spiritual toes and you wouldn't believe the amount of humility that God is teaching us daily. HE is our strength and our song and we can't help but delight in the blindness He's letting us experience right now.

embrace amazing grace,
the milillo fam